"i hate you mom" then she storms off and cries in a corner, after pushing her little brother to add to the drama.

at 5, she's quite the drama queen. i know i'm supposed to be the mom and be the mature one, and in control, but sometimes it get so darn hard. so what am i supposed to do? i often myself being entangled in her horrible fights, saying things back and bickering and sulking just like my kids.

which should not be the case, really. so i've tried ignoring her, or giving in to her, at least, as they say, on paper. but most of all, i just let her let off steam, then give her the big mama bear hug i know she longs for, despite all that is said and done.

or rather, because of all that is said and done i guess. she has told me quite directly a few times that she feeels i love the little one more, and i tend to spend more time with him, so that is reason she is unhappy.

so, my darling, i am so very truly sorry if i have unintentionally let u down, or not paid u enough attention. i will make it up to u. i am. i love you so much my little princess, and we will have lots of special time together, just the two of us, i promise. i love you sweetheart.